Damn you Nemo

That's where we are, swimming. We just keep swimming. We are now in the paperwork phase. Really folks, it's a phase for special needs families. Mounds and mounds of paperwork. What they don't know it that I am the queen of paperwork. Duh. Something about owning my own businesses and adopting just screams bring on the paperwork!!you

Thank you sooooo much to all of my friends who have come out of the woodwork to help me, send me sweet messages, introduce me to friends with similar family dynamics, friends who come over with treats or call (or swing by) to pray. I love you all, I really do!!!!

On a lighter note Scott and I have been together for 8 years this week!!! Wowza! Where did that time go? Time is going by way too fast.

90 more mins and we get started on an offical diagnosis for Alex. 90 more mins and we get help. 90 mins and I am sure my heart will break.

Aggression

Alex is getting worse. Really really bad worse. Like pushing an old person at church worse, trying to kill the cat worse.
We have to actually sit in the same room with him during a temper tantrum but not too close or he will bite, scratch or punch us. If we leave him alone he does all of these things to himself. He will beat his head on the edge of something until it opens up and bleeds. He will bite himself until he has torn his own flesh. I cannot wait until we get this figured out. I am watching my son slip away from me and I feel like there is nothing I can do...

Aspergers and such

Yesterday was Alex's 3 year check up. I have honestly been putting it off for awhile because I knew what we were going to hear and I knew how I was going to feel. It sucks, big time. So far he has an informal diagnosis of Aspergers. Ugh... I hate even typing it but I knew it was coming. This Thursday we start the real testing.
Today I am at a loss of what to even do or think. I dropped the kids off at daycare so I could have a day to clean and and research. Really, I just needed a day for myself because I wanted it. Also, I have some medical testing this afternoon and I just needed to stay focused.
What I really need is help from other parents who have and are going through this.