Zehabu

This has been a very long over due post. I didn't even know what to write as I couldn't/can't wrap my head around the situation. I also am heartbroken and every time I sit down to type I cannot stop crying.
2 weeks ago we found out that Zehabu will not be joining our family as she is no longer available for adoption. I am not sure exactly what happened to her but I have a pretty good idea and I am not ready to share this tragedy with the world. It hurts so much to breathe, think, cry... I have never experienced anything like this before. I am morning for the daughter who I never got to hold, never hear giggle, never will kiss. I don't even know if she ever knew how close she was to her forever family, so very close. It amazes me how much I could love someone who I never even met, but to us, she was/is our daughter.
We have only told a handful of people and I am sorry that we didn't get a chance to everyone personally but at this point it still hurts too much to talk about it.

adoption update

Our home study is done, waiting for our fingerprints and have completed 10 hours of training. The only thing left to do is wait fr Zs documents and start raising funds. It has been amazing to be a part of such a wonderful experience. People are coming out of the woodwork to help us and we completely appreciate it! We feel so blessed for every last prayer, penny and piece of advice people give us regarding this adoption.

No news is???

We are still waiting on the adoption agency to send up documents on Z. There are elections going on in Ethiopia near where she is so there is no internet, telephone or in some cases power in that area. For us that means that we are at a standstill and it is kind of a strange place to be in. There is NOTHING that we can do to speed up the process. All we can do it sit back relax (ha) and pray. The good thing about this wait, is that it gives us a chance to raise more much needed funds. The double travel to Ethiopia has added a huge expense to this trip. The good news is that we finished our homestudy!! Woot woot.
I had a wonderful mothers day and hope that you all did too!

Off and running

We have jumped in with both feet and are on our way with our next adoption adventure. I cannot believe that this is really happening! Sometimes it is just so surreal. Are we really adding another child to our family? We have the official approval from both agencies and our home study (update) is scheduled for this Wednesday. Yikes!! I better get to cleaning!