Sunday, May 30, 2010

Zehabu

This has been a very long over due post. I didn't even know what to write as I couldn't/can't wrap my head around the situation. I also am heartbroken and every time I sit down to type I cannot stop crying.
2 weeks ago we found out that Zehabu will not be joining our family as she is no longer available for adoption. I am not sure exactly what happened to her but I have a pretty good idea and I am not ready to share this tragedy with the world. It hurts so much to breathe, think, cry... I have never experienced anything like this before. I am morning for the daughter who I never got to hold, never hear giggle, never will kiss. I don't even know if she ever knew how close she was to her forever family, so very close. It amazes me how much I could love someone who I never even met, but to us, she was/is our daughter.
We have only told a handful of people and I am sorry that we didn't get a chance to everyone personally but at this point it still hurts too much to talk about it.

7 comments:

Owlhaven said...

I'm so sorry.....hugs!!

Mary

Susan Fox said...

Ouch. I am so sorry. My thoughts are with you.

nowwhatelmo said...

I am so sorry. :(

Brandi said...

I am so sorry.......

Amanda said...

thinking of you. I'm so sorry for the loss of meeting your daughter. So heartbreaking...big hugs from Ohio.

Megan said...

Andrea, I am heartbroken for all of you. What an opportunity she missed to be part of your amazing family.

Tymm said...

Our son, Brighton Asher, passed away in Ethiopia before we could get him home. I totally feel your pain.

Keeping you guys in our thoughts and prayers...

tymm
www.brightontheirworld.org